Monday, July 7th


 This is beautiful Lenore.  Look at her eyes!  They are beguiling.  

This is another day I have been given, and I sing praises for that.  It got up to 96 degrees today so I didn't venture outdoors.   Right now I am in bed with my beautiful baby (well she isn't a year old yet!) Lenore hugging me.  Jay is sound asleep and peacefully sleeping.   Sometimes he has nightmares.  I don't know if I should include such personal info or not, but I guess it is okay.  When he does I pat his shoulder and speak soothingly to him until he rests more easily.  I don't have nightmares that I can remember,  but I used to as a child and young woman.  Generally I would pray when I awakened and that helped.  My parents were both very sweet when I had nightmares as a child, and very soothing.   They never made me feel foolish.  I know there is a tendency to say "get over it" but how can the unconscious mind get over anything?  It can't.     

I had lots of pain today and Jay was sweet.  I know I must aggravate the "whatever " out of him sometimes!  Today's non-health aggravation was buying a cell phone charger that actually works.  It seems like they are really poorly made.  Certainly we have to replace ours more often than might seem necessary.  I am tired, so I will sign off on Today's entry.  Maybe tomorrow will bring a great day!  Blessings and love to my friends and family! 

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